so my fingers are in rawr mode right now, and before this ends I want to write as many words as possible!
ready get set go!
first of all, rawr mode..the state in which my fingers thirst for movement. The reason? I don't even know, but each time this happens I run to my room, standing infront of the piano, and play endless
Fur Elise's and
Rondo alla Turca's, or grab the guitar and strum the chords of whatever song I can remember.
But for this particular instance, I am knowledgeable of the reason.
Frustration.
It's been awhile since I felt this sort of thing, since I am always accustomed to winning. Not winning as in contests, but the feeling of doing better than what I expected myself to do :
winning against myself.
But recently, I lost.
When I saw the marks on my essays and quickwrites, it was like a slap in the face.
No, no, not that gentle..it was like a slap, then a splash of cold water, and then a deafening shout ..."GUMISING KA NGA!!"
and then I woke up. What have I been doing the past four months?
Hmm..the distractions made me sleep.
Work, Play, Hang-outs..
and just this last Christmas, I bought a new phone, with a plan [pre-paid services are not popular here] of unlimited text (domestic and international),
so my fingers are literally burned everyday.
And I also received a laptop..so I can now play whenever.
Not that all of them is entirely bad, maybe it's just me. I lost track of my priorites. It's because nobody is pressuring me to do so. I learned that in this kind of society, in which students don't get a lot of time knowing their batchmates, nobody cares for anybody. I mean,
really..I miss CalSci pressure.
My work increases my savings, playing clears my mind, the hang-outs make me feel comfortable and boost my self-esteem..
This new phone I got makes me communicate again with my bestfriends, and not worry about paying huge.
This laptop makes it easier for me to do my homeworks and stuff, not waiting for my sibling until he finishes his.
*sigh* I hope I do better on Friday, the last essay I am going to write for the semester.
My fingers want to rest right now, too bad I also want to write about my experience at work. Next time, perhaps? :D
Au revoir! ^^
