haha. napansin ko ang tamad ko pala mgpost..everytime haharap ako sa computer nwawala sa isip ko ung mga dpt kong ipost. mdme na ako naiicp kaso prng nwwla tlg. cguro kasi mrmi ng laro ang computer ko..hehe..dsl kasi, tpos malaki ung memory kaya mas enjoy ko mglaro noh..hehehe..

cmula nung dumting kami dito, napansin ko mas close na kami nung mom ko. dati kasi sa pilipinas, wla tlga kaming time mkapag-usap tungkol sa mga bagay-bagay. im busy sa school, xa naman sa mga organizations na sinalihan niya. and i guess that gap between us created much problems..i usually blame it to her pag may ginagawa ako na nagagalit siya, kasi nga hindi nia ako kilala..hindi nia ako pinilit kilalanin. my friends know me better than my family. tama naman un diba, kaso parang hindi n tlga ako nkakapagkwento sa kanya. pero nung dumting kami dito, nag-iba na.

kami lng kasi dito sa bahay, ung kapatid ko pumpsok na, tpos ung dad ko bumlik sa indonesia because wla pa xang work dito. we started to talk things na pangfamily ba..mtgal na rn nman kasi akong di nkkrinig ng stories about them..and also im not that much interested sa family feuds noh..

then i started to learn much about my past. my mom told me na nung pinanganak ako, september 9, 1991, that was also the date my father saw his name on the manila bulletin's list ng board exam passers. nsabi ko..haha..swerte talaga ako! ako pa ung unang apo sa father's side..sabi nga nila dumating daw ako as blessing to our family. natouch nga ako nung nrinig ko un. tpos, cnb pa sken ng mom ko na alam nia pa ung mga suot ko sa lahat ng nging birthdays ko. it was like..wow..tlga..dati i thought na wla talaga xang pakialam sken tpos ngyon kinekwento nia na naaalala nia pa ung mga bagay na un..

habng ngkekwento xa may ktext ako sa fone. tpos bglang sabi sa text "sama mo n lng aq jan". i merely thought it was a joke...kasi sino ba naman ung magsasabi nian sa ganitong oras..at ska xa ung tipong mdlas magjoke ng mga gustong gwen sa buhay..kya ayan..nababansagang "paasa". marami nrn kasi kaming mga moments na ganito..ung mga super sweet ang atmosphere..kaso nde nman ntutuloy..kasi nga it was just meant to make me happy.

kya i jokingly said , "cge b, pgblik ko sama ka na sken pgpunta dito. klngan nga lang may visa ka na noh" then..nkakagulat na cnb nia may US at canada visa na xa..and reserved plane tickets. it was like..woah..prang after this text lang ready ka na pumunta dito noh! joke b tlga to o anO? then i said.."ok lng kaya na taung dlwa dito?" and then i stumbled and completely forgot what my mom was saying when the reply was "sa family ko ok lng, seo?" huh? i started to react and think na hindi na joke un. he already mean what he was saying. his family kasi is the one who mostly make decisions for his life and future kaya nkkgulat lng na pati sa family nia ayos lng.

i replied.."cge kekwentuhan ko mom ko..cguro pwd na pag tpos na tau both ng college db..wee excited na tlg ako.." but damn, smart was having delays again..excited pa naman ako sa reply nia..it was like..deciding moment na yun noh! 3 hours have passed..wla preng reply..wonder kung ngalit xa or nwlan ng load..xmpre nde ko nman xa mttwgan dhl anlayo ko..not like when we were there..pag nde xa ngreply..twag ako tpos sa fone n lng kme mg-usap. hayyzz..im already getting sick of the wait. ako na ung nag-initiate.."hoy asan ka na? ng-expire n b unli mo?..total eclipse ung music dito sa tim hortons(a cafe just like starbucks)..and i really miss you"..then, hoping about a reply about the conversation..i just smiled when i read.."miz n dn kta"..merely ending the topic.

hay. wla na nmang kwento ang post ko noh! pero hindi. it was like..after that conversation sa text..i realized na,,i can change destiny. hnd nio cguro ako maintindihan..pero ang alam ko kasi na i cannot change anu man ang mgyre sken ngyon, but suddenly i thought..i have the power to make my life..and get the most out of it.

"love isn't finding someone you can live with..but finding someone you can't live without."

haha..i was browsing the blogskins website to find something good for the future..but i came up to the skin showing the quote above. sayang nga lang, maganda sana kaso click to nav xa..better find something na "isang bagsak" (sbe nga ni heb) lng.

the quote struck me as it is..nothing special..but the quote left a mark on my head. nsbi ko..oo nga noh..they've been finding those persons to whom they can live their forever..those who will love them and care for them till the end of time...pero npansin ko lang,,kahit sino naman pwedeng gawin yun sa'yo diba? then how'd you find that special someone kung every man on this earth can care for you and stay with you forever? of all the man willing to be yours..cno ang pipiliin mo? hehe..aun..tama ung quote diba..finding someone you can't live without. oo..kaya kang alagaan at samahan ng lahat ng tao sa mundo..pero may isa lang sa puso mo na hindi ka tlaga mabubuhay ng wla un. and that's what we call love.

then came the first statement. xmpre after finding someone you can't live without..you want now to stay with that person forever..kasi nga hindi ka mabubuhay ng wala xa right? that's why they have to say.."you're mine" and the like para mgng till death to us part na ang drama db? after a relationship..there comes marriage..the greatest promise on earth between two lovers.

marriage. what a word. a word derived from love. a word meant to be forever. pero bkt gnon..db supposed to be love ang bubuo sa marriages? why is it there are "arranged marriages"? bkt kaya nila ginawa un? it's bad to say this pero prang gnamit nila ang marriage for other things. they've taken advantage of what it is not supposed to do..for example sa business..to keep it through ages..the siblings must continue marry another business associate or whatsoever. otherwise hindi na macocontinue ung business. it's so sad na wala na silang karapatang mamili ng taong pkksalan nila, ung taong hnd cla mbubuhay pag wla un..pero kung un talaga ang culture nila wala naman akong karapatang i-question un.

hayy..bakit ko nga ba naisip ang mga bagay na to? bata pa ako..edi syempre nanonood ako ng tv. sobrang cliche na nga ung stories about arranged marriages na..hnd natutuloy dahil ung dlwang un may ibang minahal..pero its not always that. minsan ung mga arranged marriages din ang nagiging way para magng cla. it may be because of the pressure from their parents..or somehow they have learned to love each other kaya nggng successful ang isang arranged marriage.

marriage..arranged or not...has destiny behind its back. hehehe..nkklungkot man para sa iba(skn na dn)..pero gnon talga..fate has decided it. =P

uh. so bad.

npnsin ko puno na ng pics tong blog ko. i haven't really wrote about what's me and who's me. prang tntmad kz ako mag-diary-type blog nuong mga pnhong un. natrauma ako mgpost mxdo bout myself..nung naaalala ko ung mga posts na dinelete ko out of the non-privacy of this blog..that posts must've been the longest posts i've ever made.pero ok n dn un. so much about the past. ü

hehe. kwento. anu nga bng kkwento ko. naiinis ako..kasi nmn i really had trouble about entering a new school ds new sem. i've already graduated highschool..and as what UBC said..(sounds like the counterpart of UP d2) i only need a post-secondary year to comprise with the pre-requisites for that subjects i'll be taking in college. but i was so shocked na ang hrap pla ng system dito. College schools do not necesarily mean the programs here can have you graduated in 4 years, or get a bachelor's degree. iba pla.

those that are called "colleges" are those schools that you will spend a year or two to selectively take what your full bachelor's degree is all about...and then after that time proceed to the "universities" that will make the 3-4 years completion of your degree. they have adopted this system to maximize those who graduate for each course. di tulad satin, kala mo andme nila nung first year..then bumgsak..nagshift. kaya aun..ang konti ng grumaduate. here, the first two years are enough to somehow 'really' decide on what your career path is..then proceeding to your 3rd year means that you know that you can actually pass and graduate. and also..first year college students here are on the age bracket of 17-21..already adolescents..those who can actually pursue their career at a right age..preparing you for the emotional, social and mental shock of being a career-oriented person.


first..ang problema ko is my age. age has become the analysis of what level you will be in. dito they wouldn't mind if you already finished highschool at 15 or 16..they mind what age are you so that all the information thought to you would be appropriate of how mature you are now that you are older. since i studied early and was accelerated, im only 15..putting me into grade 10. woah! that sucks! 3 years more before i actually go to college? what the..but as ive said UBC confirmed that i only need one year. so time to relieve myself from enroling in those secondary schools and finally go to college.

the next school ive checked was a college school. dito daw pwd ko na itake ung 1 year na klngan ko. but..so much of that not having international standards..that school didn't even recognize what our F137 looks like..and even didn't honor my diploma! err..the diploma should prove that im already graduated right? pero iba pla dito. they need the Transcript of Records..which turns to be the F137 im holding. but the problem is ang sistema ng school ntn..klngan ng request kaya nde skn bngay ung original. all i have here was a certified true copy. sounds ok..but the admissions officer requested for my original copy. damn it. ive said..."get it down my country!"

then. ngyon.my problem has already been solved. gmgwa na daw cla letter to address CCSHS. isa pa, since i have no course outlines of what subjects we've already taken..(adv. chem, adv. physics, calc.) nde tuloy nila malaman kung anong subject equivalent un dito. so para nde na mhrpan pa both sides..i mean pra nde na ako mghakungkat ng course outline nten..ive decided to back-track those courses..those highschool courses this first sem. then the next sem will be the start of my college. nga pla ive changed my course..i finally decided to take BS Pharmacy..since medical technologists here are not really needed..they've got the technology to analyze blood samples..kya aun.

actually..kht ano nman pwd..pre-med nman un prehas db..kxe magmemedicine ako. but what im afraid of is ung tamarin akong mag medicine pa..bka in the future..auko na bgla magmedicine ganun..kaya ive thought i will finish my pharmacy degree first pra if ever nga tamarin ako..at least meron na akong degree..di tulad nung iba na kht ano n lng ang pre-med nila..tpos di pa nla tnpos..ung mga excited magmedicine..two years premed lng kinuha. at the middle tinamad cla. aun..kht 6 years na clang ng-aaral it's like wla pren clang ntpos kz dey ddnt have the degree...mhhrpan clang humnap ng trabho. to start all over again is such a mess.

well un lng muna for now. im still deciding on what i really feel. kya enough muna of those love stories..^_^

HWANGJINI,movie, showing June 6, 2007 in Korea

Hwangjini-- based xa sa isang Korean novel...at nung napanood ko ung trailer, it is so much like Memoirs of a Geisha..un nga lng, korean version. Song Hye Kyo plays the lead role (prang c Zhang ziyi) as a Chosun-era gisaeng(a female entertainer..pra ngang geisha). at nung nkta ko to, i cant believe na nkaya ni song hye kyo ang ganito ka-challenging na role(meron kz ditong ilang bed scenes)..prang big switch..bglang change image xa..from being an easy-going wife ni justtin lee, ngayon isang geisha. pero mgling tlg xa. and im a big fan of her! eto ung link ng trailer...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cKj14_f_yqo

MY GIRL AND I ,movie, showed 2005

My Girl and I--pansin mo ung pnglan prang My Sassy Girl. and yeah, itong movie na to mssbe kong kahanay ng My Sassy Girl series, pero hnd kadugtong ung kwento ha! Starring Song Hye Kyo(again..xmpre!) at si Cha Tae Hyeon(xa ung bidang lalaki sa My Sassy Girl). At kahanay nga xa ng My Sassy Girl Series dhl ung kwento niya is about love. A tragic love story of a schoolboy falling in love with a schoolgirl in highschool but discovers later that she is gravely ill. cute nung trailer..mejo mlungkot ung story pero mgnda pren si song hye kyo..hehehe..di q pa alam ending eh..pero later panonoorin ko rin sa youtube ung buong movie. the following link is for the trailer. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vXbIY4s-EVo

Full house--cno nga bang mkakalimot sa kwento ni Jessie Han at Justin Lee? Starring Song Hye Kyo as Han Ji-eun, and Jung Ji Hoon(Rain) as Lee Young-jae. this series tells about a story of love that may seem impossible but they proved it to be true. Han Ji-eun, a writer has her house, the full house that was sold to famous actor Lee Young-jae by her "trusted friends", and since the full house is the only possession ji-eun has, she can't give this up so easily. the two agreed to have a contract marriage, with the conditions that divorce will be established 6 months after the contract, and the house will be returned to Han Ji-eun in that time. The contract was easily signed by the two parties, not knowing that each and everyday they get in touch with each other may lead to love. Ji-eun first felt that she's in love with Young-jae, but since the marriage is only a contract, and Young-jae has his childhood love which is Kang Hye-won(Lorraine Kang) but loves their other friend, Yoo Min-hyuk, she thought that being with him is only a dream. Meanwhile, Ji-eun's boss, which is Yoo Min-Hyuk(Luigi Yoo) has his own feelings for Ji-eun and tried to get her from Young-jae, which later realizes that now she loves Han Ji-Eun. At the end, the love square has settled finally and the marriage between Han Ji-eun and Lee Young-jae turned not only to be a contract but is always a promise to everlasting love. haha..e2 ung link nung trailer.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xavkoBgw4V0