Warning :
dont read if you're sick of oh-so-emo love stories.
because if you do, you would only hate me.
i did not write this to make you feel that way.
some girl liked some boy for a long time, but didn't realize it until the boy falls for another.
the girl tried to amend for the past times she'd been ignoring this treasured love.
the increasing frequency of their moments together seemed to be quite useful, as the boy promised he would never do what the girl fears.
the girl leaves, with the relief brought by the pact.
events appear to be happy and fine, when one night the girl found herself crying over a song.
"tulad ng mundong hindi tumitigil sa pag-ikot, pag-ibig di mapapagod..
tulad ng ilog na hindi tumitigil sa pag-agos, pag-ibig di matatapos."
she was shocked to see herself crying, because the lyric is supposed to bring happiness to a girl.
to a girl - but to the other
the crying lasted for a week.
next day she knew why she had been crying.
the promise was broken.
she kept telling herself it was okay..she already cried over this.
the boy already explained why it had happened.
the not-supposed-to-happen-event was ended anyway,
so the girl bowed to let go if this incident.
days, weeks, months. a year passed by and the feeling did not change.
but only now did the events stabbed her eyes so they would open.
it was never okay..
it was never meant to be.
the promise was supposed to be broken.
she knew it even before she started amending.
she had lost from the start,
and yet why did that boy promised he wouldn't,
when he knew he would anyway?
still,
she had fallen so deep she doesn't know how to give up.